How do leggings negate butch? How did they negate me? Obvs what makes me who I am lies past fitted caps and side shaves, and runs deep between hair follicles and skin cells but…but? I forgot how connected my identity is to everyone else. I know there’s this idea of the shmoozy butch: the one chick in men’s clothing that acts like they’re Don Draper, Lesbian Jesus’s gift to queerkind, and the orgasm-giver during the holidays. I’m not that person. Even if you think I am, I’m not. I just wanna make good and radical people smile, feel loved, feel present. I know what I look like. I’m a fucking welcome sign for all queers within a 20-mile radius of me and I like it. I’m proud of it. I just wanna say “hey girl” to you and to your people and also say “hey human” to all those who don’t go by ‘girl’ cuz I’m down for you and I mean it. I’m that person and holy shit how come it wasn’t as easy to be that person in leggings?

Gabrielle Rivera, “Fat-Booty Butch Wears Leggings - Confuses World, Confronts Self” (on autostraddle)

jadecho:

"Disappearing" at CUPSI 2013 Prelims

in gym class
my white best friend points to the flat of my face
and says “you don’t really have a nose.”
it’s the first time i notice the difference
in the geography of our faces
i wish for a tall, delicate nose like hers
like my white boy punk idols
like the girls the boys see as beautiful

7th grade is a year of disappearing
the boys lounging in the breezeway
cackle about how i don’t have an ass
the department store jeans sag over the thin of me
it’s the first time i learn my yellow body
does not exist here

i’m in college
the first time a man old enough to be my father
hollers at me on the street

"sup lil mama!
me love you long time,
long,
long time.”

his words lick the back of my neck, slow
there’s a part of me that takes it as a compliment 
there’s a part of me that wants to falcon punch the lecher out his face

it’s the first time someone makes me understand
how my yellow body shouts
easy pussy
across the sidewalk
port of nagasaki thighs
for you to commodore perry open
cambodian countryside cunt
to bomb in silence

in the mirror
i want to skin the chinadoll off of me
these almond eyes
flushed porcelain cheeks
that betray me
look how cute you did yourself up today
you were asking for it

it’s october
the halloween store sells costumes called
“asian persuasion”
"geisha beauty to ninja cutie"
modeled by white women in black wigs
cleavage bursting through strategic seams
my skin a little something sexy to don for one night only
they wear the fantasy of it
but never know the itching
how we asian women
carry a certain insanity 
with the yellow of our skin
tiptoeing the ghostland 
between invisible and undesirable
visible and easy victim

i’ve learned to speak steel trap
when talking to white men
keeping my smiles from showing too much interest
because the air is heavy with ghosts between us
chinese women abducted into new world prostitution
british opium ravaging pearl delta apart
in 2008, the 16 asian women in oakland victimized by police
in 2000, the 2 japanese women in spokane
raped by 2 white men “infatuated with the japanese race”
i’ve learned i can’t trust anyone to see me
under the histories this country
has mapped onto our skin

in class
the paper pale english major next to me in
seems too interested
in whether or not i have plans for the weekend
i can’t tell if he’s just friendly
or viewing the beginnings of a porno
in the corners of my smile
i want to tear the “undemanding” 
the “passive” from my skin
i leave the classroom
hoping walking away
is enough to not disappear

lesbolution:

can straight girls please stop shitting their pants over being mistaken for lesbians or being called lesbians as an insult?

when someone tries to insult you by calling you a lesbian, they’re a homophobe. if you actually find it insulting to be called a lesbian, you’re a homophobe too. this is not a difficult concept to grasp.

thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
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thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
Zoom Info
thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
Zoom Info
thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
Zoom Info
thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
Zoom Info
thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
Zoom Info
thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
Zoom Info
thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects
"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 
The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”
Zoom Info

thekhooll:

The North Star School Arkitema Architects

"North Star School is a municipal primary school with approximately 1,200 students spread across four lanes and a large special class section. The school is in its star form an expression of its own structure. Each thanks to the star is a division of two vintages with its own identity, decorated in its own way, targeting exactly the age group that will be staying there. 

The star is centered on a common square, heart space, where all school zones meet - a learning center, which is emphasized by a large red and sculptural library staircase. This is the school’s dynamo, where both professionalism and opportunity for social interaction are woven together in an inspiring environment.”

iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.
Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.
Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.
It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.
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iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.
Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.
Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.
It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.
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iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.
Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.
Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.
It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.
Zoom Info
iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.
Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.
Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.
It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.
Zoom Info
iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.
Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.
Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.
It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.
Zoom Info
iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.
Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.
Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.
It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.
Zoom Info
iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.
Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.
Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.
It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.
Zoom Info

iridessence:

I think my face has a sort of sensationalizing effect on my pictures, and that’s okay usually because I love my face and it’s great. But I wanted to take some pictures without it because I want other fat and/or black people to relate. The “pretty face” fat thing is still a large issue within the body positive community.

Beautiful-faced fat people are so important, but our revered presence tends to alienate those who feel they don’t make the face cut. The same applies to fat people with medium to smaller bodies on the spectrum, and I realize that that’s where I fit in these days. I don’t deny that privilege that I have, but I hope people larger than me still see some features they can relate to. Not to mention, when we do see very personal pictures of nude fat bodies, they’re overwhelmingly white.

Anyway, I saw a post involving feelingswithbrandy and pardonmewhileipanic that spoke on an issue about representation of fat-related features on bodies that people feel they alone have because they don’t see it documented frequently, if ever, in the body and fat positive community.

It got me thinking that I wanted to show myself to other fat and/or black people in hopes that they can relate. I usually wear clothes because I like style, but I wanted to serve a slightly different purpose. So here’s a series of pictures of my body with some large deposits of back fat and some visible deposits of side/under boob fat or whatever it is. I cropped out my butt because too many fetish-having asshats lurk, and I’m sure they’ll still get to these but at least not all of me.